“Spring is about beginning again…”
Today is the Spring Equinox which marks the beginning of an entirely new astrological year. As the Sun enters Aries, so does the New Moon tomorrow.
It’s finally Aries season.
And I sit here wondering what that means for me.
I’m an Aries Sun, Leo Moon, and Libra Rising. Lately, I’ve been getting into Debra Silverman’s Applied Astrology, which is her practice of using astrology with psychology. I’ve been finding it rather interesting how we can decode much of our personalities and life happenings through the stars. I suppose it’s much like Myers-Briggs or the Enneagram—just tools to use to get a deeper understanding of the self. I’ve been tempted to get a birth chart reading to see what the stars say about me.
But it is finally Spring, which means it’s a new beginning for many. We’re at the start of a new calendar and with the changing of the seasons brings the rebirth of nature (at least in the North Hemisphere where I reside). When I think of Spring, I’m always drawn back to this wonderful passage from Jeanette Winterson:
I personally haven’t been feeling the greatest lately. I find myself still holding onto things and people I know (in my head) I should let go of, but my heart is believing in (and possibly yearning for) one more chance. In really Winterson’s words, it almost feels like Spring is the perfect time to release that feeling and let it go. And as easy as that sounds, I’ve been finding it a rather difficult thing to do.
Spring gives me hope though. I generally always feel better when the days get longer and the temperature becomes warmer. It’s almost like my body wakes up then and I become restless to get moving. I haven’t felt this yet, but I’m sure it’s coming, and this year I want to be prepared. I always feel this restlessness and I always have nothing to do to ease it. But this year, I want to make a plan to get out there into the world. I may not be in my ideal place, but I’m starting to believe that I need to make the most of it. So I may be planning a few solo dates for myself—I’ve been thinking of keeping a jar with a bunch of Artist Dates I could take myself on and every week pick from it and see what I get. Then I’ll have to go do it.
It’s a thought and a plan, and I hope I stick to it.
I guess the challenge for me this new season is to continue to trust in the Universe and just let go. I feel like that’s been the running theme of my year lately—this push and pull of holding on and letting go. There’s this illustration I heard from my mother that comes to mind right now: if you keep your fist clenched tight around something, there is no way for God to put something in it. But if you keep your hand wide open, then you are able to receive. She uses this example a lot when talking about giving and how the more she gives to others, the more God can give to her in return. But I’m seeing it for myself as maybe I should be letting go so that I can receive the blessing from the Universe in return.
Debra Silverman’s recent blog post about this double Aries in the sky right now had a lovely little New Moon prayer at the end of it, which seems to resonate with all of this:
Here is a prayer for this New Moon:
May I find my love again.
Remind me to celebrate the Sun.
Give me back to my enthusiasm.
Melt the walls I have put in place.
Show me why there are reasons to giggle again.
I am available sweet soul to have you come close. I am here.
Show me how to love again.
Remember my signs? All the driftwood I’ve been collecting?
Well, I’m seeing hearts.
And I’m taking all of this as a sign that maybe it’s time to let go.